So with the beginning of 2015, and a desire to grow in many areas, I've decided to do a little self portraiture this year. I may not post all of this to my work BLOG, in fact i was hoping to post this onto my BLIP folio, but cant seem to access it and will have to deal with that over the next week or so...so for now here it is on my BLOG.
I've been having so many feelings lately about getting older and how that impacts my daily life and choices. I deal with so many youth when working and lately everyone seems so young ....as if I'm the only one aging. Call this a mid-life crisis...call it whatever you want, but I never realized I would have all these thoughts and feelings and have to navigate through them.
My first thought that has been heavily on my mind is that when I was young and thought about being "grown up", I always envisioned myself 20 or 30 something. I never considered being in my 40's or 50's....that seemed too far away..or maybe I thought i'd never be there????? I always thought of having a child too, but never saw them older than 3 or 4. Now here i am at almost 47 with my beautiful almost 10 year old and I'm not prepared for this. This is ground I never thought or dreamed about...this is seriously unfamiliar territory.
I feel as though I have accomplished so many of things I dreamed about as a youth ....dating, prom, college, career, marriage, babies etc...and now other than my passion for photography, I feel a little bit lost...or maybe i should say unfocused. And dare I say it....a bit scared. So much change happening....physically, mentally, emotionally....Yikes...it's like puberty all over again, but with the lack of hormones!
Well, I could go on, but I must head out for the day....and I"m getting "unfocused" again.
If you have any feelings similar, feel free to share:) Maybe we can navigate this together.